The chorus of I and I captures to an uncanny degree the spooky, scary feeling of being trapped in the ego with its endless dialogs and dim apprehensions of a mysterious God lurking in the background. I have never heard or read anything that conveys this feeling as vividly as these two lines.
These two lines are amazingly intimate. You hear them and there is an electric feeling, this is my most intimate experience, and it has been captured by somebody else in a recording studio.
"Neither honors nor forgives" evokes the ego's envy, self-hatred and endless recriminations.
"No man sees my face and lives" reminds us that we feel as if our Self is beyond our grasp. It reminds us also of the desperate need to hide our thoughts, and of the biblical God. We always feel God when we feel the ego because the ego is the feeling of estrangement from God. Even people who don't believe in God can't sense their I without feeling a hope and fear that someone is watching over their shoulder and judging them and providing justice. The whole complex — ego, world, God — is imagined simultaneously.
"Someone else is speakin' with my mouth, but I'm listening only to my heart," is a perfect description of how to practice self-enquiry. |